Madelynn's Heart 2

A year ago today was the day we thought that we would get some answers.

We went to the pediatrician for just a two month check up at least that's what it was when I made the appointment in September of 08. However the day before, the Urgent Care Doctor sent the x-ray to the pediatrician and it changed our appointment.

Madelynn has a boot-shaped heart. What does that mean?? The pediatrician did not what to speak out of turn until the cardiologist got a good look at her heart. He told us not to worry if Madelynn had a serious heart condition she would display other symptoms. She was not displaying ANY of these other symptoms.

So again I left another doctor with almost no answers but with more than I knew the day before. That evening I spent researching through the Internet all of the terms I heard the doctor say. I felt a little better because the doctor was right. Madelynn truly did not display any of the symptoms for a child with a boot-shaped heart.

We had an appointment for October 29Th 2008 to see the cardiologist. So again we were in another waiting game this one was a little bit longer, about 15 days.

There was still something that we had not done. Other than each other Phil and I had not told ANYONE. We needed to tell our parents and other family members. My parents were visiting my sister. I did not want to call and put a damper on that visit and I truly did not know that much as it was.

So sometime over the 15 day waiting period I sent out an email that included the most important people we wanted to tell. I know it sounds cold to send this type of announcement in an email. However, this was the best way I could properly tell everyone the same story, not leave anything out or exhaust myself from crying or telling the same story over and over again.

I was trying to stay positive as I have older children to worry about. The more I talked about it I knew I would just cry and I didn't have the energy for that right know. The days I carried it around without telling anyone made it a dream just unreal at this point. I watched Madelynn like a hawk but saw nothing. Just normal everyday baby stuff.

Things were so normal in fact that we were not ready for journey we were about to undertake.

Or were we??

TTFN