Everyone grades success with a different scale. With all the roller coaster rides this family has been on the last 24 hours has been a good smooth ride. We were due for a BIG grocery run. I mean big. You name it we were out of it. In the last 24 hours I have been to 5 different stores to get all the necessary items to keep this household running. Crazy I know but we like particular foods and they are only sold in certain stores.
Since returning from the last store earlier this afternoon I have gotten it all put away, cleaned up the kitchen after making homemade dish washing soap found here, and Homemade Granola found here. I have run the dishwasher hoping my homemade dish washing soap would work. I was AMAZINGLY very surprised. It works GREAT. It cost me less than $15.00 and will probably last me 6 months or more.
While I was anxiously awaiting the dishwasher to get done I was surfing Pinterest. I discovered a new way to cook hard boiled eggs. This was sooooo stinkin' simple I would have NEVER believed it had I not tried it for myself. Ready for this.....take an egg out of the refrigerator (or as many as you want to cook), place each egg in your muffin pan (open per hole), preheat your oven to 325 degrees (yes your oven), place the muffin pan in the oven for 30 minutes. When you pull the pan back out of the oven, spoon each egg out and place it in cold water for about a minute, then peel.
When I cut the peeled egg open I was speechless. I found a perfectly cooked bright yellow centered egg. Katie was so excited it was gone before I could take a picture. In 40 years I have never figured out how to not overcook a hard boiled egg until TODAY!!
Right now I am finishing a glass of wine and my whole house smells of the homemade granola. I can't wait try it out in the morning. Between meals, stopping home between stores and the things I made today I think I cleaned my kitchen 6 times today. But it was well worth the success of today.
TTFN~
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Savannah, GA
When I opened the gift I truly had no idea, complete surprise. For the first time in 9 years Phil and I were going on a trip WITHOUT kids. Phil, my family and Nana Patti were able to work out the logistics so we could be gone for 4 glorious days.
Friday March 16th we were off to Savannah, GA. Over the years, Phil and I had been there for our 1st Wedding Anniversary which was FABULOUS. Last November on our way to Florida we stopped there over night with the kids and they loved it. But together Phil and I had never experienced St. Paddy's Day down there. I was VERY excited.
We arrived about 4pm Friday afternoon parked the car and the rest of our travelling would be on foot. We walked most of Bay Street every day. Saturday morning we were up very early walked to mass at the Cathedral, watched the parade, went to eat, watched more parade. One of the things we tried to do was support only local restaurants and not the big franchises. We found terrific food. I tried so many new foods in those four days than I did in 40 years.
We stopped by the Mercer House (Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil), the first Girl Scouts House in the US, St. John the Baptist Cathedral (twice: once for Mass and and the other for pictures), admired the simple beauty of the squares, walked River St multiple times, a dueling piano bar and Savannah's Vietnam Memorial was really cool. One afternoon we walked through the Colonial Park Cemetery. There was something about this cemetery that just draws you in. The last time someone was buried there was 1853.......Yes I said 1853. One of the Signers of the Declaration of Independence was buried there.
There was one thing I saw that took my breath away and just stopped me in my tracks. There was a family plot that had a headstone that was five feet by five feet. I had never seen a burial stone so big. If I remember correctly there were eleven names carved out on this GINORMOUS stone. That was a big family. After taking a closer read, Phil and I discovered they had 6 children buried in the plot. Not one of these children lived to their 3rd birthday. It was very sobering to think of the heartache that mother must have carried. I felt so fortunate to have such a beautiful family.
One afternoon we decide to take the car to Tybee Island. I heard about what a beautiful place it was but had never been. It would be fun to take the kids and stay there a few days. We also discovered a Civil War Fort. I never knew one was there. So we walked all of Fort Pulaski. This is a must see if you are ever in Savannah.
I posted several of my pictures on my pinterest page for viewing here's the link: http://pinterest.com/addler99/my-photographs/ I will be posting more. I think I took close to 300 pictures if not more.
This trip would have not been possible without so many of you. Thank you to Phil and my family for scheming to put it all together. Thank you to Patti for taking the time out of her schedule to fly in and take care of the kids (that was a gift in itself). Thank you to Ray and Linda (Kaitlynn's god-parents) for taking care of the kid logistics and getting Patti at the airport so Phil and I could get the heck out of dodge. Quite possibly this was the best birthday present ever.
Thank You.
TTFN~
Friday March 16th we were off to Savannah, GA. Over the years, Phil and I had been there for our 1st Wedding Anniversary which was FABULOUS. Last November on our way to Florida we stopped there over night with the kids and they loved it. But together Phil and I had never experienced St. Paddy's Day down there. I was VERY excited.
We arrived about 4pm Friday afternoon parked the car and the rest of our travelling would be on foot. We walked most of Bay Street every day. Saturday morning we were up very early walked to mass at the Cathedral, watched the parade, went to eat, watched more parade. One of the things we tried to do was support only local restaurants and not the big franchises. We found terrific food. I tried so many new foods in those four days than I did in 40 years.
We stopped by the Mercer House (Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil), the first Girl Scouts House in the US, St. John the Baptist Cathedral (twice: once for Mass and and the other for pictures), admired the simple beauty of the squares, walked River St multiple times, a dueling piano bar and Savannah's Vietnam Memorial was really cool. One afternoon we walked through the Colonial Park Cemetery. There was something about this cemetery that just draws you in. The last time someone was buried there was 1853.......Yes I said 1853. One of the Signers of the Declaration of Independence was buried there.
There was one thing I saw that took my breath away and just stopped me in my tracks. There was a family plot that had a headstone that was five feet by five feet. I had never seen a burial stone so big. If I remember correctly there were eleven names carved out on this GINORMOUS stone. That was a big family. After taking a closer read, Phil and I discovered they had 6 children buried in the plot. Not one of these children lived to their 3rd birthday. It was very sobering to think of the heartache that mother must have carried. I felt so fortunate to have such a beautiful family.
One afternoon we decide to take the car to Tybee Island. I heard about what a beautiful place it was but had never been. It would be fun to take the kids and stay there a few days. We also discovered a Civil War Fort. I never knew one was there. So we walked all of Fort Pulaski. This is a must see if you are ever in Savannah.
I posted several of my pictures on my pinterest page for viewing here's the link: http://pinterest.com/addler99/my-photographs/ I will be posting more. I think I took close to 300 pictures if not more.
This trip would have not been possible without so many of you. Thank you to Phil and my family for scheming to put it all together. Thank you to Patti for taking the time out of her schedule to fly in and take care of the kids (that was a gift in itself). Thank you to Ray and Linda (Kaitlynn's god-parents) for taking care of the kid logistics and getting Patti at the airport so Phil and I could get the heck out of dodge. Quite possibly this was the best birthday present ever.
Thank You.
TTFN~
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Trying to catch up.....
I have so many posts and can not figure out how to get them all written. So in this particular one I will combine two in one.
Friday March 16th took an incredible amount of planning along with some very generous family members and great friends. Phil and I were headed off to our first weekend alone, yes without kids, in almost 9 years. But that is a different post. In order for that weekend to happen we needed help from friends to logistically handle the kids until Nana Patti arrived.
When we arrived home Monday afternoon I started going through Madelynn's backpack and found this......
All I have to say is HOLY CUTE BATMAN!! Love this!!
Also, earlier this week Madelynn was coloring in my office. She had been carrying around a stuffed pillow princess that looks something like this..............FYI - She LOVES this doll.
I have been trying to get more done before I have to leave with Madelynn in the afternoon so I created a little work station for Madelynn. She has paper, crayons, markers, coloring books. Basically I get about 30 mins longer each day with it. She decided one day she would draw her version of this Cinderella.
She beamed with incredible pride when she showed me her finished product. I asked her if I could take the picture home and put in her treasure box. She grinned from ear to ear. Below is her Cinderella portrait.
To be three years old, I think the detail is perfect. I really love the fact that she recognized that Cinderella had blue eyes and she was very specific to include both that and her crown.
TTFN~
Friday March 16th took an incredible amount of planning along with some very generous family members and great friends. Phil and I were headed off to our first weekend alone, yes without kids, in almost 9 years. But that is a different post. In order for that weekend to happen we needed help from friends to logistically handle the kids until Nana Patti arrived.
When we arrived home Monday afternoon I started going through Madelynn's backpack and found this......
All I have to say is HOLY CUTE BATMAN!! Love this!!
Also, earlier this week Madelynn was coloring in my office. She had been carrying around a stuffed pillow princess that looks something like this..............FYI - She LOVES this doll.
I have been trying to get more done before I have to leave with Madelynn in the afternoon so I created a little work station for Madelynn. She has paper, crayons, markers, coloring books. Basically I get about 30 mins longer each day with it. She decided one day she would draw her version of this Cinderella.
She beamed with incredible pride when she showed me her finished product. I asked her if I could take the picture home and put in her treasure box. She grinned from ear to ear. Below is her Cinderella portrait.
To be three years old, I think the detail is perfect. I really love the fact that she recognized that Cinderella had blue eyes and she was very specific to include both that and her crown.
TTFN~
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
The games children play....
Over the past few weeks with all the nice weather the kids have spent HOURS outside. The trampoline is SOOOOO happy and feels so loved. I have been working on cleaning all the flowerbeds out. The flood gates of excitement have burst to see all the plants popping back from last year.
While I have been unearthing these treasures I hear the kids playing games, laughing, giggling and even a little fighting in there. Recently I hear the kids all yelling "NOT IT" trying to be the first one. I am not sure why or happens to the last person to say not it. I usually just hear it in passing.
So tonight while I was in the kitchen cooking dinner Katie was talking to Daddy about an in school assignment she did. Funny thing is my sister's daughter just brought home the same in school assignment. They were to write two letter's to two different people convincing them to do something. Kaitlynn wrote one letter to Jackson. It was really sweet. She explained to him that they would have more fun playing if they did not fight so much. I thought it was a SPECTACULAR letter. I LOVED it.
The second letter was to her daddy. She wanted to convince him she was old enough and responsible enough to own a bunny. I am not going to lie as Phil read it out loud I had to leave the room to keep from laughing. She completed the letter by signing it, "Your LOVEABLE Kaitlynn". She was so sure he would say yes. It was very sweet.
So as Phil and I were discussing the letter. Kaitlynn thought we were going to make a decision right then and there. She huddled with Jackson and Madelynn telling them on the count of three they would all say, "PLEEEEEEEASE!!" Hoping for that last HAIL MARY. Well I hear Kaitlynn whisper as only children can, "1....2....." before Kaitlynn could say three Madelynn yells at the top of her lungs, "NOT IT!!!!!!!"
I did not have the heart to tell her she missed the memo in the huddle and just laughed.
TTFN~
While I have been unearthing these treasures I hear the kids playing games, laughing, giggling and even a little fighting in there. Recently I hear the kids all yelling "NOT IT" trying to be the first one. I am not sure why or happens to the last person to say not it. I usually just hear it in passing.
So tonight while I was in the kitchen cooking dinner Katie was talking to Daddy about an in school assignment she did. Funny thing is my sister's daughter just brought home the same in school assignment. They were to write two letter's to two different people convincing them to do something. Kaitlynn wrote one letter to Jackson. It was really sweet. She explained to him that they would have more fun playing if they did not fight so much. I thought it was a SPECTACULAR letter. I LOVED it.
The second letter was to her daddy. She wanted to convince him she was old enough and responsible enough to own a bunny. I am not going to lie as Phil read it out loud I had to leave the room to keep from laughing. She completed the letter by signing it, "Your LOVEABLE Kaitlynn". She was so sure he would say yes. It was very sweet.
So as Phil and I were discussing the letter. Kaitlynn thought we were going to make a decision right then and there. She huddled with Jackson and Madelynn telling them on the count of three they would all say, "PLEEEEEEEASE!!" Hoping for that last HAIL MARY. Well I hear Kaitlynn whisper as only children can, "1....2....." before Kaitlynn could say three Madelynn yells at the top of her lungs, "NOT IT!!!!!!!"
I did not have the heart to tell her she missed the memo in the huddle and just laughed.
TTFN~
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Spring is Officially here....I am sooooooo glad.
My plan was just to clean up the backyard a little so I knew it was safe for the kids to play in. We have a HUGE (now it is) Oak Tree in the back yard. It took us a few years to figure out what it was so we named it "Bob". For whatever reason "Bob" does not like to get naked until spring time.
So when everyone else is cleaning up Fall leaves, we have to wait until Spring. So the day started out will cleaning up "Bob's" mess and mom o' man can he be a slob. The best part about cleaning up "Bob's" chaos is the fun the kids have with it.
Once I can get them to sit still long enough I might get one or two better pictures.
He always looks sooooooo much better after a haircut.
They did not want to sit still for very long.
Then they discovered they could have a little fun with the wagon. If you look close enough Maddie didn't quite hang on tight enough.
But by the end of the day we had accomplished plenty. The old compost bin had been torn down, the new one was up and starting to be filled, the raised garden had been built and filled. Although it was quite exhausting it was a very successful day.
Hoping we will be fruitful in our results from the garden.
TTFN~
So when everyone else is cleaning up Fall leaves, we have to wait until Spring. So the day started out will cleaning up "Bob's" mess and mom o' man can he be a slob. The best part about cleaning up "Bob's" chaos is the fun the kids have with it.
Once I can get them to sit still long enough I might get one or two better pictures.
He always looks sooooooo much better after a haircut.
They did not want to sit still for very long.
Then they discovered they could have a little fun with the wagon. If you look close enough Maddie didn't quite hang on tight enough.
But by the end of the day we had accomplished plenty. The old compost bin had been torn down, the new one was up and starting to be filled, the raised garden had been built and filled. Although it was quite exhausting it was a very successful day.
Hoping we will be fruitful in our results from the garden.
TTFN~
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Basketball.....
No, this is not a post about NCAA college basketball......
Back in January, Jack started playing his first season of basketball. He was really excited; I was incredibly nervous. I wasn't sure how well he would get the concept or if running up and down the court would get old or boring for him.
By the end of the season, I was very wrong. I watched him get a rebound, run down the court and score on a lay-up. I was so speechless I almost forgot to clap and cheer. I watched him pass the ball and be a team player instead of always worrying about ME....ME....ME.
I believe that one of the things that helped Jack along was that Daddy agreed to be the assistant coach. I think he really liked having Daddy right thee on the bench with him.
Jack was however most excited about his end of season trophy. He didn't know he would receive a "participation" trophy. But to Jack it was a trophy nonetheless. I had to laugh when I came home and saw it, he carried it around for two days. I finally had to tell him to put it down and leave it somewhere or he would lose it. I only had to say it once and the trophy found a home on his dresser.
But not before I snapped a few pictures of it.
Back in January, Jack started playing his first season of basketball. He was really excited; I was incredibly nervous. I wasn't sure how well he would get the concept or if running up and down the court would get old or boring for him.
By the end of the season, I was very wrong. I watched him get a rebound, run down the court and score on a lay-up. I was so speechless I almost forgot to clap and cheer. I watched him pass the ball and be a team player instead of always worrying about ME....ME....ME.
I believe that one of the things that helped Jack along was that Daddy agreed to be the assistant coach. I think he really liked having Daddy right thee on the bench with him.
Jack was however most excited about his end of season trophy. He didn't know he would receive a "participation" trophy. But to Jack it was a trophy nonetheless. I had to laugh when I came home and saw it, he carried it around for two days. I finally had to tell him to put it down and leave it somewhere or he would lose it. I only had to say it once and the trophy found a home on his dresser.
But not before I snapped a few pictures of it.
At the end of the last game Jack's coach passed out some forms for a summer basketball camp. It is just for a week and close to the house, before we arrived home Jack asked if he could go. Yes, we will be signing him up.
Before he sees anymore basketball action in about two weeks he and Katie will begin spring soccer. I never really saw myself as a soccer mom, guess I was wrong.
TTFN~
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Resolutions......
Well I did take the time to email Kaitlynn's school counselor, principals and the early bird/after school director. The feed back was VERY Positive and I could see a change in Kaitlynn when she arrived home from school Monday afternoon. I truly hope they take great care in rebuilding Kaitlynn's feeling of safety in the school. I will wait a few more days and talk to her again just to make sure things are getting back to normal.
Today ranks right up there with my top 5 most stressful days EVER!!! We walked into the hospital and Madelynn PANICKED!! I had not truly talked to Madelynn about what would happen to her today because I didn't know what her very intelligent, three year old mind could comprehend. I calmed her down by feeding her a little applesauce. She didn't know it was laced with a little Valium. After we were escorted to the waiting room for the test she started to panic again. When she saw the toys she calmed again. All the ups and downs of the morning was emotionally exhausting.
I had NO IDEA how to explain to my 3 year old daughter they would insert a cath into her bladder, fill it with both dye and fluid to make her pee. She has only been potty trained for 8 months.
Then we walked into the test room and EVERYTHING I have taught Madelynn went out the window. I had to tell her it was okay to take her clothes off in front of strangers, it was okay to let strangers touch her in her private areas, it was okay to pee on a table and not in the potty and when she was SCREAMING telling me to make them stop; I just looked and her and told her I was sorry. The guilt of forcing your child into a difficult medical test sucks!!
I did also explain that it was a test and the doctors were doing their job. But I know it was NO consolation. I am not sure how affected she will be by this test only time will tell. I can only hope I was more affected that she was.
The Test came back NORMAL!!! This was very good news. The details of of the results are this. Only this test came back normal. It doesn't mean she still doesn't have Vesicoureteral Reflux. This is her urine travelling back up to her kidney's instead of out her bladder. The doctor told us sometimes for children you can have normal results and still have this condition because it only becomes present when you have a Urinary Tract Infection (UTI) with a high fever.
So our goal it to teach Madelynn some extra precautionary measures when she potty's, per her doctor. If we can keep her from getting a UTI maybe she will never have to have the test again. If she does have the condition she will just grow out of it and today's horrible experience will be history.. This is small change in routine compared to what we could have had.
We would like to thank everyone who reached out to us wishing us only the best results. It was nice to be surrounded by so much prayer and good thoughts.
TTFN~
Today ranks right up there with my top 5 most stressful days EVER!!! We walked into the hospital and Madelynn PANICKED!! I had not truly talked to Madelynn about what would happen to her today because I didn't know what her very intelligent, three year old mind could comprehend. I calmed her down by feeding her a little applesauce. She didn't know it was laced with a little Valium. After we were escorted to the waiting room for the test she started to panic again. When she saw the toys she calmed again. All the ups and downs of the morning was emotionally exhausting.
I had NO IDEA how to explain to my 3 year old daughter they would insert a cath into her bladder, fill it with both dye and fluid to make her pee. She has only been potty trained for 8 months.
Then we walked into the test room and EVERYTHING I have taught Madelynn went out the window. I had to tell her it was okay to take her clothes off in front of strangers, it was okay to let strangers touch her in her private areas, it was okay to pee on a table and not in the potty and when she was SCREAMING telling me to make them stop; I just looked and her and told her I was sorry. The guilt of forcing your child into a difficult medical test sucks!!
I did also explain that it was a test and the doctors were doing their job. But I know it was NO consolation. I am not sure how affected she will be by this test only time will tell. I can only hope I was more affected that she was.
The Test came back NORMAL!!! This was very good news. The details of of the results are this. Only this test came back normal. It doesn't mean she still doesn't have Vesicoureteral Reflux. This is her urine travelling back up to her kidney's instead of out her bladder. The doctor told us sometimes for children you can have normal results and still have this condition because it only becomes present when you have a Urinary Tract Infection (UTI) with a high fever.
So our goal it to teach Madelynn some extra precautionary measures when she potty's, per her doctor. If we can keep her from getting a UTI maybe she will never have to have the test again. If she does have the condition she will just grow out of it and today's horrible experience will be history.. This is small change in routine compared to what we could have had.
We would like to thank everyone who reached out to us wishing us only the best results. It was nice to be surrounded by so much prayer and good thoughts.
TTFN~
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Hoping for a better day....
Well I did my best to talk to Kaitlynn and prepare her for going back to school after yesterday. I almost cried when I dropped her off because I believe there was a part of her that did not want to go. However she never told me. One of the perks of my job is that no one will fault you for sneaking of to a quiet place to pray for a few minutes or 30. So today as they do every Friday during Lent, I walked over to the church to pray during Stations of the Cross. I am at a loss on how to help and protect my child.
I was hoping and praying today was a better day.
Before any of this happened I promised my friend I would help her for a few hours today. So I didn't get to find out about her day until about 5:30. I talked to Phil he assured me she was fine. But I wouldn't really know until I talked to her myself. Her day was better but only because she decided to skip breakfast to avoid any confrontation. I was so angry I could barely speak. So now this person has belittled my daughter and made her afraid to eat breakfast at school. I might add she has eaten breakfast at school almost everyday for the last three years.
At this point, it was obvious Kaitlynn needed me. So for the night I put my feelings aside let Kaitlynn have the things I promised her today. After dinner, we had a little family fun playing Dance Party 3 with the XBOX 360. This girl LOVES to dance; she was just full of smiles. Watching Phil and the kids dance through the house made her forget for a little while and hopefully remind her that the love of her family was way more important.
This weekend I will take the time and email all necessary parties at the school. I hope they will step in and stop it now before it gets out of control. In my mind it is already is out of control. My daughter changed her routine and skipped the most important meal of the day because some 5th grader thought she would have a little fun with her.
Praying for a quick resolution to this ridiculous problem that should never be.
TTFN~
I was hoping and praying today was a better day.
Before any of this happened I promised my friend I would help her for a few hours today. So I didn't get to find out about her day until about 5:30. I talked to Phil he assured me she was fine. But I wouldn't really know until I talked to her myself. Her day was better but only because she decided to skip breakfast to avoid any confrontation. I was so angry I could barely speak. So now this person has belittled my daughter and made her afraid to eat breakfast at school. I might add she has eaten breakfast at school almost everyday for the last three years.
At this point, it was obvious Kaitlynn needed me. So for the night I put my feelings aside let Kaitlynn have the things I promised her today. After dinner, we had a little family fun playing Dance Party 3 with the XBOX 360. This girl LOVES to dance; she was just full of smiles. Watching Phil and the kids dance through the house made her forget for a little while and hopefully remind her that the love of her family was way more important.
This weekend I will take the time and email all necessary parties at the school. I hope they will step in and stop it now before it gets out of control. In my mind it is already is out of control. My daughter changed her routine and skipped the most important meal of the day because some 5th grader thought she would have a little fun with her.
Praying for a quick resolution to this ridiculous problem that should never be.
TTFN~
Friday, March 2, 2012
How much can one mama take.....
So I haven't posted in about two weeks and it seems like a life time ago. As I lay in bed at almost 1am my mind is swirling. Two weeks ago today my friends mother died. To be there at the actual moment someone passes from this life is almost indescribable. What I can tell you is that I knew it was time. I told my friend to tell her mother it was okay to go. Within 5 minutes I could feel her mother's spirit and then she was gone, no heartbeat, no pulse just the lifeless body that carried her for 85 years. I was glad I could be there for my friend.
Less than a week later we were told there could possibly be something wrong with Madelynn's kidney's or urinary tract. It was all I could do to not buckle at the knees. After talking to other families, it could be something very simple, nothing at all or a problem. For the last week I have been convincing myself that it is nothing all. It is just Madelynn's doctor's being over protective. After what she has been through and the near miss with her heart, they aren't taking any chances. But I am not going to lie taking her back to the children's hospital for a test is a little unnerving.
So probably the icing on the cake. The reason I am up doing laundry and typing at 1am. Today I was informed Kaitlynn was bullied at school. She was being laughed at in the cafeteria at breakfast which caused her to spill the rest of her syrup from breakfast all over some of her new clothes Grandma Bacho bought her. The laughing and finger pointing continued and Kaitlynn didn't know what to do. I had to get some clean clothes up to the school. Her teacher talked to her about the incident but I am not sure what she said.
I talked to the school counselor this evening. I had very mixed feelings about that conversation. When I came home Kaitlynn and I talked and she would not leave my side. After the two weeks I have had I will not take it. Hopefully with the weekend coming I can help her feel better. My biggest hope is that the school counselor does her job and at least checks into the incident.
It has been a long time since I have felt this helpless. There is nothing I can do to help ease my friends pain, I can't stop a possible new diagnosis for Madelynn and there was absolutely nothing I could do to protect my daughter from some ignorant, selfless, 5th grader from making my child feel like dirt.
There are many other little things that if I let them get to me, it will eat me alive. So for now I refuse to let any other negative things come into my life. I am telling God I have had enough I can not take anymore.
If you want to do something to help...pray my friend finds peace in her mother's passing, if there is something wrong with Madelynn we find the strength to handle it and to protect my daughter from others that would target her and for the 5th grader who did target her to find another focus.
Hoping with the beginning of March and signs of Spring we can find new beginnings and better prospective and wash all this negativity from February away.
One mentally exhausted mama.
TTFN~
Less than a week later we were told there could possibly be something wrong with Madelynn's kidney's or urinary tract. It was all I could do to not buckle at the knees. After talking to other families, it could be something very simple, nothing at all or a problem. For the last week I have been convincing myself that it is nothing all. It is just Madelynn's doctor's being over protective. After what she has been through and the near miss with her heart, they aren't taking any chances. But I am not going to lie taking her back to the children's hospital for a test is a little unnerving.
So probably the icing on the cake. The reason I am up doing laundry and typing at 1am. Today I was informed Kaitlynn was bullied at school. She was being laughed at in the cafeteria at breakfast which caused her to spill the rest of her syrup from breakfast all over some of her new clothes Grandma Bacho bought her. The laughing and finger pointing continued and Kaitlynn didn't know what to do. I had to get some clean clothes up to the school. Her teacher talked to her about the incident but I am not sure what she said.
I talked to the school counselor this evening. I had very mixed feelings about that conversation. When I came home Kaitlynn and I talked and she would not leave my side. After the two weeks I have had I will not take it. Hopefully with the weekend coming I can help her feel better. My biggest hope is that the school counselor does her job and at least checks into the incident.
It has been a long time since I have felt this helpless. There is nothing I can do to help ease my friends pain, I can't stop a possible new diagnosis for Madelynn and there was absolutely nothing I could do to protect my daughter from some ignorant, selfless, 5th grader from making my child feel like dirt.
There are many other little things that if I let them get to me, it will eat me alive. So for now I refuse to let any other negative things come into my life. I am telling God I have had enough I can not take anymore.
If you want to do something to help...pray my friend finds peace in her mother's passing, if there is something wrong with Madelynn we find the strength to handle it and to protect my daughter from others that would target her and for the 5th grader who did target her to find another focus.
Hoping with the beginning of March and signs of Spring we can find new beginnings and better prospective and wash all this negativity from February away.
One mentally exhausted mama.
TTFN~
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