The Edge of the Cliff

"When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go. Only 1 of 2 things will happen, either He'll catch you when you fall, or He'll teach you how to fly!"

I believe He pushed us to the edge when we were told that there was a problem with Madelynn's heart. I believe we slipped and fell off the day we walked across the bridge from the cardiologist office to the children's hospital. I believe He caught and carried us while Madelynn was in the hospital. I believe everyday she gets better and stronger we are learning to fly.

My best friend called me Monday in the middle of the day. She works thirds at a hospital so it was very odd she called me to begin with. I could not answer because I was tied up at work. I worried because her father lives with her, she cares for him. I usually hear from her once a week about dinner time when she is on her way to work. When I finally got back with her she just wanted to chat. I was so relieved.

We have been friends for almost 25 years, she and her husband are Jack's god-parents. I do not know what I would do without her. She doesn't know it but she was one of the people in my life that helped carry me while Madelynn was in the hospital. I called her all the time because she is a nurse. The day Madelynn was admitted in the hospital I think I talked to her 6 times in about 5 hours. She was so calm and kept it together just asking me questions about what was going on.

Talking to her helped make it real for me that it was not a dream. Explaining things to her helped the things the doctors told me sink in and stay there instead of everything being a big blur. Even when they told us Madelynn should not be alive. She was there. Even 500 miles away, she was there.

Because the days get easier, sometimes I remember things that have happened back then but I don't remember ever thanking some people. I would hope in life that I would never have to return that kind of favor. However, we all know that somewhere down the road, I will. I hope that I can keep it together for her they way she did for me. Most of all I hope she knows my life will never be the same because of her. I love her to pieces.

Thanks for EVERYTHING Girly!!

TTFN