We spent Christmas Eve with Grandma and Grandpa Bacho and had a really good time. We had dinner and had to clean up before we could open presents. I thought Katie and Jack were going to explode at the waiting. They had a great time opening presents. I hope it is a tradition they will come to enjoy.
Madelynn had not been doing really well that week and got sick again Christmas Eve. I was really worried about her. So Christmas Day I took her back to the Children's Hospital, to the Emergency Room. After examing her, although she had not really gained any weight, she was only mildly dehydrated. Since she did not have a fever or any other symptoms, we were sent home and told to follow up with her doctor.
The doctors office was closed the day after Christmas and then the weekend came. By the end of the weekend she seemed to be doing much better. She had not thrown up since Christmas Day so I thought we were finally on the back end of it. Tuesday she got sick again. After talking to the doctor we took her in for a weight check. It was still exactly the same. She had not gained any weight in about three weeks. She was finally eating again though. My hope is that when we see the doctor this week she will finally be over twelve pounds. Maddie is just over 25 inches long but at last weight check New Year's Eve she was only 11 lbs 9oz.
We have lots of upcoming appointments. My hope is that by the end of the week we will have good news to report on her weight. I hope that she will not have to have anymore breathing treatments. By the end of the week I just want to be worried when her next feeding is not how much should I feed her or will she keep it down.
Taking her to the Hospital Christmas Day was like the day her lung collapsed, or they kept her in CVICU for two extra days, or driving her back to the hospital at the beginning of December. I feel like I am failing her and completely defeated. I have not felt very social or keeping up with things. Phil has been working so much we actually thought he would have to work New Years Day so we made no plans. We just let the kids stay up as long as they wanted. Mostly so they would sleep in a little New Years Day.
However it is a New Year and it is time to start things off the right way. We have hopes for 2009!!! We hope that Katie will be very excited about starting kindergarten in the fall. We hope that Jack will be in the select number of students in our district that he will go to the elementary school with Katie in a peer 4 program. If not we will have to help him adjust to being at the school without Katie. I have to believe that what is best for him will happen though. As for Madelynn my hope for her in 2009 is that she returns to a thriving infant, that by the time 2009 is closing the events of the last 60 days will just be a memory.
It is hard to believe the events of the last 60 days and Phil and I are still her. I would have never thought that I would still be standing. We really need for things to settle down just a little bit. Some type of routine for me would be good. Right now I am just all over the place. So my hope for Phil is that God provides him with enough work so we can get by but don't kill him. I hope for myself that I can enjoy each day with my family and not what we have to do two weeks from now.
We hope for everyone that the one thing you feel you were missing in 2008 that you find it and happiness in 2009!!! TTFN
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