Resolutions......

Well I did take the time to email Kaitlynn's school counselor, principals and the early bird/after school director. The feed back was VERY Positive and I could see a change in Kaitlynn when she arrived home from school Monday afternoon. I truly hope they take great care in rebuilding Kaitlynn's feeling of safety in the school. I will wait a few more days and talk to her again just to make sure things are getting back to normal.

Today ranks right up there with my top 5 most stressful days EVER!!! We walked into the hospital and Madelynn PANICKED!! I had not truly talked to Madelynn about what would happen to her today because I didn't know what her very intelligent, three year old mind could comprehend. I calmed her down by feeding her a little applesauce. She didn't know it was laced with a little Valium. After we were escorted to the waiting room for the test she started to panic again. When she saw the toys she calmed again. All the ups and downs of the morning was emotionally exhausting.

I had NO IDEA how to explain to my 3 year old daughter they would insert a cath into her bladder, fill it with both dye and fluid to make her pee. She has only been potty trained for 8 months.

Then we walked into the test room and EVERYTHING I have taught Madelynn went out the window. I had to tell her it was okay to take her clothes off in front of strangers, it was okay to let strangers touch her in her private areas, it was okay to pee on a table and not in the potty and when she was SCREAMING telling me to make them stop; I just looked and her and told her I was sorry. The guilt of forcing your child into a difficult medical test sucks!!

I did also explain that it was a test and the doctors were doing their job. But I know it was NO consolation. I am not sure how affected she will be by this test only time will tell. I can only hope I was more affected that she was.

The Test came back NORMAL!!! This was very good news. The details of  of the results are this. Only this test came back normal. It doesn't mean she still doesn't have Vesicoureteral Reflux. This is her urine travelling back up to her kidney's instead of out her bladder. The doctor told us sometimes for children you can have normal results and still have this condition because it only becomes present when you have a Urinary Tract Infection (UTI) with a high fever.

So our goal it to teach Madelynn some extra precautionary measures when she potty's, per her doctor. If we can keep her from getting a UTI maybe she will never have to have the test again. If she does have the condition she will just grow out of it and today's horrible experience will be history.. This is small change in routine compared to what we could have had.

We would like to thank everyone who reached out to us wishing us only the best results. It was nice to be surrounded by so much prayer and good thoughts.

TTFN~