ENOUGH!

"Dear Lord,

I realize that You will never give any one person more that he/she can handle but I tell you now, I have had ENOUGH!! Please share the wealth with someone else as I can handle no more."

My mother once told me that sometimes you have to tell God that you can handle no more and ask him to stop. I know I can handle more as I walked Madelynn's journey with her at the end of 2008. However after the last 36 hours I want no more. For those of you that feel your life has no "LIFE" treasure it. I am so jealous.

Saturday morning, Phil is working, I am trying to get Kaitlynn, Jackson and Madelynn out the door as Kaitlynn has cheer leading practice. All of the sudden there is a thud and Jackson lets out a blood curdling scream. He comes running to me with a hand covered in blood. I touch his head and my hand is covered in blood. So there is a small panic going on but I collect myself and actually clean up the blood and look at the wound.

It is really small cut and once I clean up the back of his head and calmed him down things were ok. I kept an eye on all day but as Phil always says,"Just walk it off". He appears to be fine and the cut is really small it is just so scary because head wounds bleed so much. Jack loves music and likes to dance. I don't mind it because it helps get the wiggles out of him. He just slipped and fell. I know little boys can be this way but the ER visit for his ear last week and the head wound this week. He can stop now. He isn't even in kindergarten yet.

So I get all of my Saturday errands done and Phil and I get ready to go out to dinner. We received a gift card to a great steak house for Christmas and decided we would use it for my birthday. With winter being a slow time of year it was nice we could go out and blow a gift card. However, OMG we over ate. We had a blooming onion, steaks, drinks, all while watching a bunch of sports. It may not be fun to most but we had a great time. Not to mention the fact it is always a race to see whose body the onion gets through first. It is always superb going in but man we regret it later.

When we finally got home we found our comfy clothes and vegged out on the couch. About an hour after Madelynn fell asleep she started coughing but it was a really bad barking cough. I was worried so I had Phil put her in the pack-n-play in our room just in case. I hate just in case. Well the coughing continued and suddenly she sounded as if she were gasping for air. Phil quickly gets her breathing treatment ready and we try to see if that works.

It doesn't and the coughing and gasping gets worse.

So about midnight I call my neighbor and wake her up. Ask her to come over and stay at the house with Jack. Katie was staying the night with a friend. Phil and I headed off to the ER. I was really scared this time. As we were driving to the ER Phil realized it was after midnight and says Happy Birthday. Sweet and I said Thank you, but I really didn't care at this time.

After examining her they tell us she has croup. They give her some medicine and tell us they need to give her a specialized breathing treatment and are waiting for respiratory to come down and administer it. The doctor says you will see results very quickly. However they have to observe her for the next two hours to make sure the breathing treatment is taking before they can send us home. So finally about 4:30 this morning we were driving home and in the silence of the car ride I could barely hear her breathing they had cleaned it up so much.

Jack not knowing any different slept through it all and came to me about 8:40 this morning ready to start the day. I convinced him to snuggle with me for a while and we would find him some cartoons and breakfast. For Jack 'for a while' meant 20 minutes.

So since about 9:am this morning things have been pretty good. Jack and my mom picked out a birthday cake for me and we dove into it after dinner tonight. It was all chocolate. Anyone that knows me knows that was a great idea. Not to mention the case of Reese's peanut butter cups I received from Jack was priceless.

Over all my birthday has not been all bad. However I am finished with child emergencies for a while. Phil and I were talking about it ....I have spent my first Mother's day in the ER with Kaitlynn, Madelynn's first Christmas in the ER, a Labor Day in the ER with Jack and now one of my Birthday's. So I can honestly say, I have had enough and I hope for a peaceful and quiet 2010 even though it hasn't started out that way.

To my neighbor who I woke up at Midnight. Thank You for everything!! I would not have made it through these last 18 months with out you. You have a heart of gold and I treasure our friendship.

For all of the Birthday wishes both those on face book and elsewhere....Thank You!!

I hope everyone has a great week.

TTFN~