Don't be afraid to "Pray the Scary Prayer.......

DON'T BE AFRAID TO PRAY THE SCARY PRAYER

Before CHD (Congenital Heart Defect) invaded our lives I don't even think I knew what a Scary Prayer was. Since our CHD diagnosis I would be happy to help pray the Scary Prayer with you or for you. I promise the Scary Prayer is nothing to be afraid of.

Several months back on one of my social media sites I saw the post, "Don't be afraid to pray the scary prayer"

It was one of those moments when I read the post it stopped me dead in my tracks. The thoughts that rushed through my mind were Jackson and the three times I released him to a surgeon, Madelynn's entire heart journey, visiting with families who are waiting for a heart for their CHD warrior, making memory boxes for CHD warriors that have earned their wings, recent events of CHD warriors fighting for their lives and sometimes losing all in about 30 seconds.

Not every one's scary prayer is the same. Some of my scary prayers were hoping my sisters twins would survive premature birth, my son would not have any complications to his three surgeries, praying daily that Madelynn would be strong enough to win her CHD battle, praying some of our CHD Warriors don't earn their wings. I can assure you that not all of my scary prayers were answered.

The importance of scary prayers is praying them out loud. Hearing yourself say it out loud helps make it real and will help you cope. To this day certain words or phrases make me cry. The realization of where we were and how far we have come can be overwhelming; almost breathtaking. Today as I stand on the other side of our journey, I remember praying for help we would make it there.

Don't forget that not all Scary Prayers are answered. Sometimes the lack of an answer is the answer. This was one of the hardest concepts for me to accept. But it is also harder to help others understand it. I encourage you to never give up and don't let fear control whether you pray your scary prayer. I will never stop praying my scary prayers.

TTFN~