Tuesday, April 27, 2010

late night ramblings..............

It is really late I stayed up to watch a show and would have felt guilty had I not finished the dishes and started the dishwasher, before I went to bed. However, as it always happens in my life thoughts come to mind at the oddest times. And lately I have been stressing about money and how everyone will get paid. But I stopped and gave it to God knowing He will take care of it at that point my mind goes elsewhere.

So this is where it took me............hopefully you will understand my ramblings.

Today we had a HUGE accomplishment that only a few people will understand. I prepared dinner and kept checking with Phil to see if her would make it home. Dinner is always so much more complete when he makes it home. He pulled in just as we put the last plate on the table and we all had dinner. And yes we had our usual difficulties and fun but tonight was different.

Lately Madelynn has good days and bad days with eating her dinner. Either I have made her favorite meal and she empties the plate without help or she totally protests and throws the plate on the floor and refuses to eat anything. With the fact that she has been doing so well I have decided to get a little more involved in CHD's and do a little reading. To great heartbreak there is a 50% chance she will have another heart issue down the road from something mild to the extraordinary.

So like the bills I could have wollered in self pity or decided to do something about it. Do something I can control. What I can control is her weight I can help her get back to a safe good percentile on the weight chart. How I see it is that if she falls into the 50% that has additional heart issues having a normal healthy weight with good eating habits will help her be stronger to fight whatever we are thrown.

How we do that is watching all the calories we give her, if she wants something to eat make it a healthy higher calorie snack. Is that possible? Yes it is. Tonight I made pork chops, scalloped potatoes, her favorite fruit and milk to drink. With the help of Daddy's silly nature, the willingness of the whole family to participate and ketchup, Madelynn ate every bite. This was the first time she has ever eaten everything not to mention all of the meat. She still has a lot of difficulty eating meats. Eating a portion of pork chops was huge.

So I will continue to not worry about the bills or the possible additional heart conditions but instead I will help my daughter gain the right amount of weight, educate myself on different heart conditions, volunteer my time where I feel I am needed and enjoy every minute of it with my kids. When you talk about the good days and bad days.....today was a GREAT day.

Today Madelynn is only about 22.5 lbs at almost 21 months old. If I remember correctly that puts her in the 10th percentile which isn't bad and I am grateful she is on the chart. But if she were to have an issue today we could easily be back to square one and the problems we had about a year ago with her weight. So as the rest of the world is struggling to lose weight and be healthy I have to come up with creative healthy ways for Madelynn to gain weight.

Hoping she gains at least another pound before we see the nutritionist next month.

TTFN~

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